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A touching story

2008-11-08T20:39:00.001+08:00

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students & teachers to support the family. There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school one of my classmates said, 'EEEE, your mom only has one eye!'I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear. I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?

'My mom did not respond....I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings. I walked out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.

So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts.

Then one day, my mother came to visit me. She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren. When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, 'How dare you come to my house and scare my children! 'GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!'

And to this, my mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,' and she disappeared out of sight. One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.

After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity. My neighbors said that she died. I did not shed a single tear. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

'My dearest son,

I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children.

I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.

I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up. You see.........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.

So I gave you mine.

I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.

With all my love to you,
Your mother.

BACK

2005-11-27T02:49:00.000+08:00

I've got new template for my original blog. so now u can go back n visit my old blog @ cinnedangel.blogspot.com. the new template has pics of JAY CHOU featured in nov's chopin! haha.. but its not permanent la of coz. but till i can find a nice template. this one will do. so shoo... its time to go back to my original blog! =)

how unprep

2005-11-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

walk walk ard a bit with zhen today.. n we went her place to do abt one full paper. but we r damn lousy so we cant do the qns.. die la... so unprepared... confidence = zero!

anw, i getting so thrifty (euphemism for stingy) nowadays... i feel so sad.. its so unlike me... changing my spending habit isnt easy.. like skipping all my coffee, eating sheaper alternatives, buying cheaper stuff / not buying... crap... but its for the greater good... coz i wanna go overseas, i wanna learn a lot of stuff, i wanna buy so many things, and i wanna do so many things!!! oh-my-gawd!!! why m i so so so broke... shit la... erm, i shud find a job or smth.. if not 7mths how to survive... not like my mum is gonna gimme pocket money to anyhow spend... hai...

s papers left

2005-11-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

only S papers left. yaysss. haha. anw, feel as if A-levels end alr. lolx!~ planning all the post As stuff.. and btw the class watched harry potter today. hmmm... mayb As really ended... lol... anw, i dun like the harry potter ending (coz it was as good as no ending!) and that yandao guy died. sad arh.

crap. i m qte tired. not in the mood to blog la. nites ppl.

nearing the end..

2005-11-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

as u can see, i havent been blogging for qte long. it felt like a million yrs alr. anw as i have said earlier, it is ending faster than it took to begin... that sounds grammatically incorrect, but yeah, u get wad i mean lah...

yepp, its near the end of it alr. the papers sux. i cant be bothered to write more. but i feel happie. ironically. mayb just relieved. not coz i did well. but jus bcoz its over. and cant do much abt it alr.]

Anw, got Jay's November's Chopin from katt's place today! =)=)=) heh... and the beeg poster which i havent open up yet... erm, elena got jay's album for her bday. too bad this yr his album came out after august. i used to get a Jay Chou album every year for my bday. thanks to cali n co. *hugs* but this yr dun have... so got ronin's instead. lolx!~

today we were stranded in sch coz it rained. den we dialled for a cab n four of us took to yishun. $3+ each only. haha. qte worth it rite? coz its $4 for booking n $1 for peak hour. and we alighted at different place. but i was qte pissed by the driver's attitude la. like we owe him money liddat. damn. spoil my mood.

i got my irritating acid reflux back. n i managed to pull thru my exams by swallowing pills after pills. damn exam stress. kk i m very sleepy. i shud go slp. so my dark rings n zits can go away. damn exams.

Day4: General Paper 1 & 2

2005-11-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

i got murdered. damnit. i felt qte incoherant. shucks. and i din finish app question. die la. and i din put anything i prepared into use. the prep dusen fit the qns well. darn. and others did so well. gg.

Day 3 - Maths P2

2005-11-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

After clearing about 3 quarters of my whole tys. i still cuden do today's maths p2. got so many mistakes. stupid careless me. and qns i cant do. qn that i cud do but forgot how to do. kept throwing marks away. since i can easily find 20marks to deduct. i think i will get 70. period. damnit.

i hope paper 1 can pull me up if i got lower than 70 or the cut off is higher than 70. crap. this maths eh. wth. oh well, wadeva the case... maths is over! can burn all the maths liao. hurhur... k la, shall give it to someone who needs it... =)

my maths is so crappy, others i must mug superduperhard liao. okok, gp tmr. i used to get either B3 or C6. which is qte extreme. but this time round. i will make it B3 or even better. shall go read some materials. and work towards my first A for gp. kk i m dreaming, but its good to aim higher. ganbatte yo!~

Day2 - Chem P3

2005-11-09T11:45:00.000+08:00

i was more prep than prelims. but this the kind of paper i get. the random definition n explantion qns. unexpected. and the kind of careless mistakes i make. and its the same type of qn i cant do. i literally whacked from the first qn to the last qn. its crazy. but there r ppl telling me the paper is ok. i dun think i can get A. erm... B? C?? shucks. i dun wanna think abt it. =(

Oh btw, 2 episodes b4 chem paper:

1) outside sports hall - i haven seen/tok to feng for weeks alr. and the first thing she said to me before chem paper...

feng: u have to teach me how to make the cake.

lolx!~ yepp! my oreo cheesecake!! haha...

2) at the canteen - we were all busy mugging chem...

jireh to me: eh show me the colours for TM cpds leh...
elena: u can see meh?
everybody: *lols*

next up --> maths p2. stats not exactly my fav. but i think if i practise i can do it. must believe in myself. off to lunch n practise maths! =)

FIRST day of A levels

2005-11-08T18:20:00.000+08:00

thank god we started with maths. hmm. anw, i got like 10marks minus alr la. *whines* i spent 40mins on a 7marks qn which i cuden do in the end. damnit. and i expressed f inverse in terms of k instead. stupid me. ok so i haf like mayb 10 marks to spare for careless mistakes. hai. the ans for this paper is really gross thou. esp qn 14OR. omg. make me so uncertain of myself. i think this paper is harder than past yr papers. 2003 was so easy. crap. okok. must jiayou for maths p2.

meanwhile, why m i blogging. shit. time for chem. paper 3 tmr. *screams*

one down. ganbatte for the rest. bye peeps. =)

GOOD LUCK!!!

2005-11-07T13:52:00.000+08:00

Hey EVERYBODY! those taking As or wadeva else.. our big day has arrived. all the best. its the lash sprint. so run with all ur might. no matter how tired ur body or mind is. jus remember be strong. u'll win the battle. and at the end of it, we'll celebrate to our hearts content. hang in there, jus for the +/- 20 days... and thats it! play! =)

All the best. Hang on. Be stong. We'll survive.

We must survive coz we wanna play after that rite? So yepp... JIAYOU!!! =)

Stefanie Sun - 完美的一天

2005-11-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

我要一所大房子
有很大的落地窗户
阳光洒在地板上
也温暖了我的被子
我要一所大房子
有很多很多的房间
一个房间有最快的网路
一个房间有很多的吉他
一个房间有我漂亮的衣服
一个房间住著朋友和他的爱人
一个房间一个房间
我也不知道该放些什黱
我们晚上不睡觉
白天在床上思考
小狗在屋里奔跑
度过完美的一天
度过完美的一天

finally bought JAY's album

2005-11-06T18:03:00.000+08:00

my dearest katt bought Jay's November's Chopin for me!!! got the poster lor!! yaysss! so nice of her! but i dunno if i'll meet her anytime soon... the album is not with me yet... haiz... but thanks anw. =)

my blog is down!

2005-11-06T04:34:00.000+08:00

i m so freaking pissed that my blog is down. kaoz. i haf no freaking idea how my whole template got deleted. must be some stupid hacker. harloe. i dun haf 3000+ hits everyday lor. wtf. and i haf no where to rant. knn. so this is like a temp blog la. i think u guys can still leave comments at the tagboard. *hmpf*

ah gong's bday

2005-11-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

only managed to study a little bit today. coz my family met up with my grandpa n other relatives for some sort of celebration for ah gong's bday. my ah gong is so fit n healthy. damn zai. he is 80+ alr. i lost count. paiseh. but he is so strong, i wish he wud live a super long, healthy and HAPPY life!!! =)

we met up at SPAN aka the POLICE CLUB. we had a TEN-COURSE dinner (thats if u exclude the shou tao dish). thats qte a lot. we had 22 people turning up. lolx!~ the 'kids' chope one table all by ourselves. 10 ppl to eat 12 ppl's share. wahahaha. we ate damn a lot basically. some of the dishes r quite nice, like the peking duck n thai-styled fish, while others were just so-so lar. but still, a bit of each of the 10 courses can make u really full n contented. ^____^

anw, haven met kenny, jane, kenneth, kelvin, siangloong, etcetcetc. for sooooo long. i really missed them. i wished i had met up with them more. like siangloong who is very supportive of me. kenneth n kenny who will finally bring me to go clubbing with them. jane who will go shopping with me. kelvin to let me bully =) i missed them so much lar... and i prolly MISSED out lotsa fun with them. (no pun intended) i must hang out with them more often after As! *promise* =)

we went to play arcade games after the meal. and i wanted to go play jackpot. finally can go in leh. but we were all planning to leave alr. so had to head home lor. nvm, sure got chance one.

i still dun haf jay's album

2005-11-05T13:28:00.000+08:00

thanks to matt who kindly sent me all the songs in Jay's Nov's Chopin. i can enjoy jay's lovely songs. yays!~

butbutbut i still want his album!! *whines* and the poster!! *whines again* so sad... i have no time to scout ard for it lor... and i bet no one else has the time/can b bothered to find jay's album for me =(

...nobody likes me, everybody hates me, i'm gonna eat some worms...

okayyy... that was chao random... nvm... anw,
zhen>>which chem paper? dun tell me its the last one? *pouts*

i want jay's album

2005-11-04T13:27:00.001+08:00

u noe JAY's November's Chopin is sold out!?! i m so darn sad now. someone pls help me buy. or buy for me even better. i'll love u to bits. haha. i want the poster. by the time the next batch comes, sure no poster alr. sobs. sobs. sobs.

oh b4 i forget, my pw mate's bday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY WY!
i made oreo cheesecake for her bday. lolx!~ hope she likes it. how lucky to have ur bday when i m in the oreo-cheesecake-making-mood. haha.

BUS 55

2005-11-04T13:27:00.000+08:00

Cannot take it. must come n blog. u noe i always take bus 55 home. usually it takes abt 5-15 mins to come. i m fine with that.

today i waited at the interchange for 45 mins for the damn freaking bus la. they had the cheeks to park all the bus 55 together. walau. for the first time in my life i saw four bus 55 parked in a row. damn it. not farnie lor. i listened to so many songs, but the no driver came to start any of the bus 55. they better not b hiding somewhere drinking kopi. anw, it was also the first time i saw FIVE BUS 55 in the interchange at the same time. something was VERY WRONG.

the queue was mother long la... to the pt that a double decker bus was filled to the brim. literally. ppl had to stand. and clog the way for that matter. and other buses all the bus 52/52/54/56/57/58 passed at least 3 times each alr. and the bus 55 din appear at the bay. kaoz. and the ppl there din even bother to come n explain to the commuters what happened. damn irresponsible.

a lot of ppl bth, and left the queue alr. i moved from the end of the queue to the middle of it. but in any pt of time, the queue was blardy loooong, i think the ppl were blocking the passage way alr. anw, when i finally boarded the bus like 45mins later, i kept hearing ppl complaining to the bus driver... but the driver jus politely apologized. i mean wad for scold the driver... i dun think he was the one who caused the wait. coz the initial 4 bus 55s were still happily parked at their original lots. i was jus grateful that finally some driver came, n the first instinct was never to reprimand him. hai. wadeva the case. the long wait did make me qte pissed off.

mayb they shud install those how many mins left electronic display boards (like the mrt) at each queue area. and more importantly, hire more efficient and more responsible staffs. tsk tsk.

mugged

2005-11-03T13:26:00.000+08:00

okok. i can feel the uncontrolled adrenaline alr. damn. so close. i m abt to suffocate. the intense pressure is pure disgusting.

studied in sch today. with zhen den cali. i did maths. cant do qte a bit. but that also include lotsa careless mistakes. but score was still ok. morale booster. heh.

had oreo cheesecake for breakfast. it was nicer than the first attempt. heh. i m getting better n pro-er. anw lunch was nice. we ate damn a lot of fattening macs. lolx. some nice guy aka zh (zhen's classmate) cycled to J8 to help us da bao food back. so we saved $2 from mac's delivery. haha. but dinner was kinda sad thou, had cup noodles which i convieniently koped from cali's locker. gonna go refill with some goodies tmr.

going off for some light reading, den my beauty sleep which i seriously lack.

bad news: the beginning of the nightmare is drawning near.

good news: the nearer u're to the beginning,
the closer u're to the end. =)

stuDIE

2005-11-02T13:25:00.000+08:00

i refreshed my own blogpage and realised i din blog today. lolx. *pengs*

i guess theres nothing much thats insightful today. hmmm, i wanted to go for chem mock, was planning to go sch at abt 9 plus, but realised that chem paper started at 8am. dotx. in any case my organic chem is still in a mess. gonna get it done soon and focus on econs then maths. okok. sounds like i haf lots to do. bleargh.

studied with han n zhen in J8 mos today. qte noisy. (partially coz han was there tokkin half the time. hee.) hard to study eh. so resolution for tmr: zhen n i r gonna study in sch, in an empty classroom, at two opposite ends of the classroom, and MUG REALLY HARD. i call it last dash. =)

anw was gonna get jay's latest album, but i haf no idea y they r selling at $19.90 when everywhere else and presale cost only $18.90... so i refused to buy there today. so sad. cant get to listen today. good things r worth the wait - my bro wud say.

got new batch of oreo cheesecake for breakfast tmr! -grinz-

successful attempt

2005-11-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

my oreo cheesecake was a SUCCESS. muahahahaa... now got very little left... that shows how nice it is man!!! -grins- those who wanna try jus leave me note, so next time i make, i can treat u! lolx!~

btw, zhen: i left a bit for you, see i how nice la? hmm.. since u agreed to be my guinea pig, thou u din haf to try the first piece. i spared ur life. but then again, with my fantastic bakery skills, u wont die =) haha...

my mum bot me portable CD player out of the blue. lolx!~ it silver, erm looks qte nice lar, can bring for chalet or beach or wadeva. haha... now it serves as my radio in my room. jus wondering y she got me that when i alr have my nano!? muahahaha... nvm, i m still happie n thankful ^^

ohhh yar, -happydeepavali- (i tried saying it in the most indian voice alr, so the 2 words sounded like one) lolx!~ and btw, wally reminded me to wish zhen... wahahaha... zhen is darker than me now lar =)

okok, i better get back to mugging, i think my chem is really shitty now. so i gotta study chem now. ciaoz.

"it's 4 weeks more to 8 months of nothingness"
keep telling urself that =D